Monday, February 16, 2015

Grow Up

It’s Time to Grow Up

Yes, growing up.

Everyone grows old, that’s inevitable, but it’s time for us to grow up.

If we aren’t growing then there is something wrong. Think of it in terms of a child. As a baby we need to grow and mature. If for some reason there is no growth (getting taller, gaining weight, learning to walk/talk) then there is something wrong and some type of change needs to begin to take place in order for us to be functional.

These past few weeks I have been looking for different areas in my life where I need to grow, specifically spiritually and in my relationship with Jesus. I’ve been a Christian for many years but have never truly been progressing in my relationship with Jesus. Yes, I knew who He was; I had accepted Him as my Savior, but I was still focused on doing what I wanted and not seeking what He had for my life. At the end of January, I was able to serve in the choir at the Passion Conference in Houston and never could I have imagined the change that took place in my heart. Since that weekend, I have truly been seeking ways to grow and specifically listening to God and focusing on what He has planned for me instead of my own desires and what I think would be fun or exciting in the moment.

As a child, when we are growing physically, we have growing pains, which is a normal process we go through. I know these physical growing pains all too well since I’m 6’6”. If we don’t have any growing pains in our life then we are not really growing. The same thing applies to our spiritual life. God tells us in John 16:33, that “In this world you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart (or courage), because I have overcome the world.” God literally tells us that things will get hard; however, it is through these trials we are given that God wants us to be able to grow. If we don’t put all of our faith in God during a trial, we will fail. We will stay stagnant in our faith, and in some cases lose our faith in God all together because we think that He isn’t with us anymore, which is not true. During these tests we need to place every ounce of trust we have in God and be obediently listening to Him. It’s in the daily trials and tests that we go through when growing takes place. No, it’s not always going to be easy, but if we are serious about growing our faith and relationship with Jesus then we need to trust and believe with all our hearts that He is fighting for us in every situation. Jesus is truly all we need. Once we realize this then we will be able to start to see how He is working in us and through us in a way that we could never have imagined.

Luke 2:40 states, “The Child continued to grow and become strong, increasing in wisdom; and the grace of God was upon Him.” As we grow in Christ we will gain more knowledge and have a better relationship with Jesus. This growth will allow us to, in turn, help others. If we aren’t willing to put in the time for God to grow in us internally, we will not see the fruit externally.  We need to remove all the distractions in our life in order for change and growth to be able to take place, whether that be issues from the past or insecurities we may have. Make room for God. Healthy things grow, and if the Spirit of God is in us, there should and will be growth.

Moses tells us in Deuteronomy 31:6 and 8, “The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” If that doesn’t fill you with joy, then something is wrong! How amazing it is to know that God is always with us, even if we don’t always fully believe it. God wants us to succeed in everything we do in life while giving Him glory and making His name famous.

On a personal level, I have started having these “growing pains” in my life, specifically with what God wants me to do after graduation. From depression to doubting myself and my abilities, this past week has been very challenging for me. However, it is in these moments of doubts that I need to fix my eyes on Jesus, the very one who created me to serve Him.

A speaker named Christine Caine shared something that blew my mind at Passion last month. She specifically talked about how God will use the willing. Luke 10:2 states, “He told them, ‘the harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field.’” It doesn’t say that the harvest is few, or the conferences are few, the worshippers are few, the speakers are few, or even just Christians in general are few; Jesus specifically says the WORKERS are few. Once we decide to fully give everything to Jesus is when our whole world will be shaken in a positive way. I have been specifically praying that God will open doors where He wants me to be and close the ones where I don’t need to be. Never could I have imagined the move I am about to make in May, whether it will just be one year or the rest of my life, I am certain that God has opened a door for me that will rock my world. However, I also truly believe that He is leaving another door open to see if I am fully committed to serving Him, or if I will stick with my own plans. Thankfully I can say that I am at peace with the fact that I am not going through that door. I am giving my all to Him and expecting phenomenal things that I can’t even image.

I was having a conversation with an amazing friend that God placed in my life recently about my future and the doubts I was having and he had some of the best advice I have ever received and will be able to hold on to for forever. He said, God uses the willing, not necessarily the equipped. However, whom He calls, He will equip. I sometimes have doubts about my future and think that I can’t do certain things, but I don’t have doubts about how powerful my God is and I know that He will give me the tools and ability to do His work as long as I continue to trust in Him with everything I have.

Luke 1:37 states, “For nothing is impossible with God.”

I’m about to be on an amazing journey, growing everyday, helping to spread the name of Jesus and I cannot wait!

Thank you Lord for your blessings on me. I pray that I never take you for granted and that I can continue to grow into the person you want me to be. Help me to become more like you so people can see You in everything I do. 

Monday, June 30, 2014


Matthew 6:14-15 says, for if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.
The other day in my communication and conflict class at TAMU we had reached our last chapter, which is titled, The Practice of Forgiveness and Reconciliation. Going into class I was not looking forward to having to spend a whole hour and a half talking about forgiveness, but it actually turned into quite an interesting debate over what the true definition of forgiveness is, whether or not it is required for somebody to forgive, and then we had a few examples of different situations that have happened in the past which we broke down further to see what was correct.
So what is forgiveness? In my textbook the authors do not give a specific definition, but rather a few bullet points on what the idea of forgiveness is. These are: “You are focused on the present after reflecting deeply on the past. You desire to be free of negative patterns that reduce the quality of your life. You are willing to do your own interior work, regardless of what the other person is able or willing to do." While these are all good ideas of what forgiveness is, I feel like William Faulkner gave a good definition in that “forgiveness is giving up the idea of a better past.” Deep, I know.
 After talking to some of my family members over this topic I was able to figure out a deeper understanding that we simply cannot forgive on our own. Yes, you can easily forgive somebody for stealing your pencil, but when it comes to a major event or situation that has just taken place, we have to be willing to extend forgiveness and pray to God for help to help us have peace again. This sort of goes into the next discussion that we had which was whether or not forgiveness is required. Growing up in a Christian home I have always been taught to forgive the person for whatever they have done, but I have never thought about digging deeper and trying to figure out where this came from. The main reason that I began to think about forgiveness was a comment that was made in class. My professor was telling us a story about how during this class in an actual semester (instead of a summer course) she was able to bring in a Jewish Rabbi, a Muslim priest (Imam Khatib, the technical name), a Christian pastor, and an atheist for a discussion panel over forgiveness. During this discussion, the Christian pastor was asked whether or not forgiveness was required. She responded saying that it was not required and forgiveness is a personal thing; that it does not affect God or your relationship with Him. This comment bothered me very badly. I immediately pulled up Matthew 6:14-15 and read it to my class. I did not understand why the Christian pastor would say that.
As Christians we cannot pick and choose things from the Bible to believe. Either you believe it all or you don’t. Now my response received mixed emotions from my classmates so I turned to my parents once I got home for some Godly advice. Both of my parents were proud of me for sticking up for my beliefs and my dad continued to reinforce my statement by giving his own examples. He reminded me of the many verses that tell us to be imitators of Christ. He went on giving examples of different times that Jesus forgave others, specifically the time that Jesus was on the cross and forgave the thief that was beside him. My mom took things from a different perspective in saying that forgiveness is required by Christians, especially if you want to have peace within. As a Christian we do not need to withhold forgiveness from anybody no matter how big the situation. However, you are not dismissing or minimizing what the other person did to you, just completely forgiving them the way Christ forgave us.
My final story will be one that I believe my textbook was wrong in. One story that my textbook uses as an example that forgiveness is supposedly not required or even necessary happened in 2001. It describes one day a woman was with her two children and they were all brutally assaulted by a man who ended up killing the two children and almost killing the woman. A couple years later while the man was in jail he was able to find Jesus and accept Him into his life and sent an apology to the woman asking for her forgiveness. The woman proceeded to ask different people in her religious community if she was required to forgive the man. The final consensus that she received was that she was not obligated or required to forgive this man. I cannot imagine the pain and suffering this woman went through but I have a few problems with the result of this situation. First I believe that we as Christians should have been praying to God for constant peace instead of trying to find it in people in her community. Another thing is that I believe that she should have forgiven the man. It is not something that she would have been able to do naturally by herself, but that is where God comes in. Beth Moore said it best, “Forgiveness takes faith. Some of the people you are forgiving are not sorry,” but “I’m going to believe in God to make it right.” It is not humanly possible to be able to forgive somebody that has taken a loved one, but that is when we need to put our faith in God the most and trust that he will give you peace that surpasses all understanding and give you the strength to be able to forgive the person.

I pray that each day we remember that Christ came as our example and that we are able to fully trust Him with all of our problems, while thanking Him everyday for what we have been given. All in all, in order to be a Christian, I believe that it is required to forgive. “For whoever keeps the whole law but fails in one point has become accountable for all of it” (James 2:10).

Thank you Lord for your blessings on me. I pray that I never take you for granted and that I can continue to grow into the person you want me to be. Help me to become more like you so people can see You in everything I do. 

Monday, June 23, 2014

The End of What?

     For those of you that do not know, I have been attending Covenant Family Church here in College Station since I moved here about a year and a half ago. I have truly loved getting to hear the Word from such an amazing pastor as well as getting to worship with some of the best people I know. About three months ago I started to volunteer with the youth group at CFC and have been blessed beyond measure since. I currently lead more or less 12 boys ranging from sixth to ninth grade. Every week I get to mentor and hang out with these kids which sometimes can put a lot of pressure on me in a sense that I need to be a perfect role model for them even though that I know this is impossible. Some days I don’t always feel like I want to go to youth because of all the classes I’m taking, but as soon as I get there I am always in awe of the ways God is using these kids to transform my life.
     Yesterday at church I was helping with Revo Jr. (our youth services on Sundays) when one of my students asked me if we could have a message on Revelations. This kind of took me by surprise because most teenagers that I know do not read their bibles, let alone ask to hear a message over a specific chapter like Revelations. This stuck in my mind all day to the point where it was making me really interested in re-reading Revelations and trying to get a better understanding to be able to help this guy. When I went to bed last night I had a horrible nightmare that involved a certain leader, Obama, becoming the antichrist and all sorts of strange things that are talked about in Revelations. Yes, it was a little comedic, but at the same time I was legitimately scared while I was asleep because we are getting closer and closer each day to this chapter being fulfilled.
     2nd Timothy 3:1-5 says “But understand this, that in the last days there will come times of difficulty. For people will be lovers of self, lovers of money, proud, arrogant, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, heartless, unappeasable, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not loving good, treacherous, reckless, swollen with conceit, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God, having the appearance of godliness, but denying its power. Avoid such people.” I do believe that we are near the end of times and that each and every person needs to be doing all in his or her power to spread the news of our Savior. You would not want to pass by a family member or friend and have them have to suffer through hell on Earth because you didn’t want to invite them to church or have a conversation about Jesus with them. I encourage anybody who reads this to ask a friend to church, and if they say no keep asking every week because the time you stop asking could be the time that they need it the most.
     As for my nightmare that I had, I have to remind myself that I do not need to be scared of anything. Yes, bad things are going to happen, but I have Jesus on my side so I don’t have to worry about anything! The book of Psalms is full of versus for not being afraid with Psalm 27:1 being one of my favorites. Who knows, we might have out next blog post over Psalms and fear. Until next time!

Thank you Lord for your blessings on me. I pray that I never take you for granted and that I can continue to grow into the person you want me to be. Help me to become more like you so people can see You in everything I do. 

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

I Am Not Alone

Hebrews 13:5 “…for He Himself said, ‘I will never leave you; never will I forsake you.’

Many time in our lives we go through trials that seem almost unfair and we begin to even question God. Why me? Why are You putting me through this? Life already seems hard enough as it is in this new generation. However, we need to know that God has never left us even in His silence. He has always been faithful to each one of us. We are His children, made in His image. Each person is born into this world for a specific reason.  Hebrews 13:5 is a promise from God that He will never leave us to figure something out on our own. This is why prayer is such an important tool that we are given. We are told to ask for everything and believe that it will be taken care of. The answer won’t always be yes, but no and even not right now. Our culture is overcome with idea of everything being instantaneous. We want what we want and we want it now. This is not necessarily a problem, but now isn’t always God’s timing for His purpose in your life.
Another thing that many people face in today’s generation is temptation. In 1st Corinthians 10:13, Paul tells us that “No temptation has overtaken you but such as is common to man; and God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will provide the way of escape also, so that you will be able to endure it.” In our culture today, we make what is good ugly, and we see sin as beautiful. When did it become acceptable to be so selfish in ourselves and our wants that we shove what we know is not right at the front of our lives? I have heard many pastors preach about temptation during my years of growing up in church, however they tend to simply graze over this verse. Generalizing that God will never give you anything you cannot handle. That is not true though, many people fall into the same temptations that they have been struggling with daily. Without God, nobody can fully over come the evil that has consumed him or her. Yes, the verse does say that God will never give you anything you can’t handle…but it is much deeper than that. He will never give you anything you cannot handle with Him. Paul is not saying that we can easily overcome temptations on our own. It is only through the grace of God that we can truly overcome the addictions and daily temptations in our life. My youth pastor for many years told us constantly to flea like a gazelle from temptations. This could not be more true, why would we want to stay in our same patterns everyday if we know they aren’t Christ-like. We need to stand strong in our faith and believe that with our wonderful Savior anything is possible.

One thing I will urge you to do in a time of needing to know you are not alone is listen to the song by Kari Jobe called I Am Not Alone. I pray that you will read/listen to the lyrics and truly understand that you are NEVER alone in anything you do.

Thank you Lord for your blessings on me. I pray that I never take you for granted and that I can continue to grow into the person you want me to be. Help me to become more like you so people can see You in everything I do.

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

There is a time...

Ecclesiastes 3:4 says there is a time to weep and a time to laugh; A time to mourn and a time to dance.

We go through many hardships throughout our lives. Everybody knows this and has had to go through at least one challenging situation in their lives. Ecclesiastes 3:4 sticks out to me tonight because, yes there are times to cry, but we should never stay mourning. Following your weeping comes laughter and dancing. Nobody said it would be easy to get through the hardships that we will have to go through. Find your true friends and family that stay with you through thick and thin. These will be the people that help you get through the trials in your life. God knew that we would be facing many hard times, especially right now in the world we live in today, however He has never left our side and will never leave you. 

The Teacher and the Student:
Imagine that you are back in high school for a minute. You have a test coming up in two weeks over brand new material that you have not gone over yet. What do you do to prepare? Well, in the days coming up to your test, the teacher is constantly making sure you comprehend the needed material. They give you study guides, maps, quizzes, and anything that will help you be able to pass the test. Now the two weeks are up and it is the day of the test. You go into class, take your seat, the teacher passes out the test, and begin taking the test. What does the teacher do? They go to the back of the class, take a seat, and watch you take your test. During this time, if you do not understand a question, the teacher may come over and help re-word the question or they will sometimes reassure you that you know what you are doing and will know the correct answer. You finish the test and turn it in. If you passed, great job! If you failed, luckily your teacher would give you another chance or allow you to make up some extra points to help your grade.
Now think of this in terms of your walk with the Lord. God is the teacher and you are the student. He prepares us for the trials that we will face in life with many different resources, sometimes without us even knowing it. He gave us the Bible as our road map to use anytime we are lost. When it comes time for our test, we try to do the best we can and God is always right there whenever we need Him. Sometimes He will chose to be silent and other times he will guide us through the rough patches. Never once will He ever leave you alone. You are his child. Made in His image and made to glorify Him in all that we do.

Thank you Lord for your blessings on me. I pray that I never take you for granted and that I can continue to grow into the person you want me to be. Help me to become more like you so people can see You in everything I do.